Do you ever try to spend a day watching YouTube videos and think to yourself, “wow, I’m such an unproductive asshole. This person is making me laugh constantly, and they’re doing the same for thousands of other people, every single day”?
Really does a number on my immersion.
I tend to feel as if the YouTubers I find entertaining are super good at two things: being funny, and having great cameras and lighting. It would be really fun to try and be that first thing, but I would be so aware of the lack of quality in production that I would effectively smash my own immersion into tiny little pieces.
I like finding lots of unfunny things and hearing my mind go “psh I could be so much better than that, I’ll be famous in no time.” Then when I see things that make me bust up laughing, the same part of my mind goes “…oh shit…OI, SHEIT, YEW HAVEN’T GOT A CHANCE EEN ‘ELL.”
Anyway. I really want to start and channel and make an attempt at being entertaining. Like, even if I’m not, at least I finally stopped sipping on vodka and lemonade for a second to try and follow my dreams.
If you’re reading this, you should do me a favor. Go follow your damn dreams. Do something, anything today. Today! Even if it is super small and seemingly inconsequential. No one cares if you spent all day watching YouTube videos; that’s a totally reasonable thing for a human being to do. But think about how you feel about it. Have you done enough to further yourself on your desired path to warrant some snot bubbles and oopsie-poopsies? Maybe you have. If that’s true, fuck you, I’m really jealous of you right now. Also, right on. Keep it up.
If you’re more like me and are having trouble getting to that particular stage of self-development, well then, c’mon yo. DO something! Just do it. The hardest part is starting, but once you do, then you’re there. You’re in the gosh darn battlefield of productivity, for the glory of true satisfaction! It really doesn’t even matter how hard you fight. It is certainly better if you fight as hard as you can. Still, if you’re there, that’s the main thing. You’re trying. You’re a god damn hero, because you’re putting your energy towards something that matters to you. Damn. Go makeout with yourself. You’ve earned it.
Me? I’ll try to get on it. I have several dreams, and a lot of them feel pretty unattainable. But hey! I’m going to try, somehow. Maybe. We’ll see.